O My Dear God

I pray to you
I wail and weep
Then I pray again
O my dear God !
You gifted me with love
Sinless and profound
In strength it grew
The strength it drew from you
None but your desire, sure
I kept on creeping higher
To whom should now I go
O my dear God !
I have met such low
I don’t kvetch , I just bow
Have I salvaged my vow
O my dear God
No No No !
I wail and weep
Over this unvanquishable gap
On my avid caring map.
What is unbeknownst to you ?
My sinking heart or my moue ?
I write not it all for you know it more,
As some laugh on whoever sore
My tears are not all of mine
The rest of them are more than mine
I have sought them
In your name,
O my dear God !
Out of shame !
I wail and weep
Over my fate
And I plead to you
Not for rescue
I know you never hate
I seek you not for pain
But never make one like me again.