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Saturday, April 06, 2013

Badi takheer ki humne lekin ye faisla kar diya
aur apne andoroon ko sabpe zahir kar diya
tabiyat ho kisi ki to humse sabab poochh le
ke kyun tumne sangeen ye maamla kar diya

izzat o ehtaram ka talluq faqat dil se hota hai
kabhi rishton aur kabhi umr ka paas hota hai
lo aaj humne tod diya risha e umeed
aur inke dakhl se sabko aazaad kar diya


tawaqqo humse na zahirdari ki karein

na hi humari guzishta inkisari ki karien
ye tapakta hua jigar hai abhi mera jalal nahi
ke humne khud se sabko bedakhal kar diya

bahot adaaein bahot reyakariyan dekh li humne

umr bhar ki hasad aur nafratein dekh li humne
phoolon ke ewaz nezon ki nok dekhte rahe
ab phoolon se humne nezon ka badal kar diya

bade beaabru ho ke kamzarfi ki khatir dekhte rahe

har baad e qahar apne zakhm tapakte dekhte rahe
apni jild apnon pe sabr bana kheenchte the hum
ab apnon pe humne khud ko faulad kar diya

mera jism meri rooh bade ranjoor ho chuke

is jild ke siwa sab bahot choor ho chuke
uriyan hain sab soortein shenakht ho chuki
aaj is soorat ko humne sabpe aam kar diya

is jism se zayed mere do tukde aur bhi hain

unmein se ek ke tukde do aur bhi hain
hifazati mere nezon ki pahunch wasi thi bahot
apne halqe ko humne lekin yahan tamaam kar diya

bahot tanhaiyon mein bhatakte rahe hain hum

kund mezaji mein apni chahakte rahe hain hum
khaaksari se kinare pade hue the ab tak
ye ab hai ke is kinare ko bahot tez kar diya

apne mustaqbil ko is ghelazat se paak rakhna hai

apne logon ko mosarraton mein aabaad rakhna hai
kisi apne naye ko ye takleef nahi deni mujhe
apne ghar ko ab maine apna jahaan kar diya

badi takheer ki humne lekin ye faisla kar diya

aur apne andoroon ko sabpe zahir kar diya
tabiyat kisi ki ho to humse sabab poochh le
ke kyun tumne sangeen ye maamla kar diya..

Thursday, April 04, 2013



While reading into human minds I started with the most familiar ones and unarguably mine counts the first. It not only seems an oppressed hobby but also a tool which can mark some fundamental behavioral changes I may need in order to see things better and react reasonably. My objective remains to analyze the backstage dramatics of our minds which through the anatomy of self-image, perspectives for other people and sharing of the thought space with them change involuntarily in the name of different states of our minds that makes us manipulate truth in different degrees and act unjustly. From where I see, it essentially takes a lot of credit from what makes the most of the inner content in a person. In most of the cases what comes on display is a manifestation of how a particular situation is perceived in that particular moment or for that period through which that display is maintained. Slowly and gradually while growing up through innumerable incidences, some significant enough to remember all through and some repetitive insignificant ones which although we don't remember for long but collectively are individualistic , behavioral patterns are cast into shapes which are mostly rigid. We do carry behaviors through our blood too but that would be a walk in a direction I know very little of. It is not to think over what could have been done in the past to have an all desired today but it is to think over today to set a better tomorrow.

Our race is a 'learn from mistakes' kind. We are not natural swimmers. Somebody must have burnt his/her finger so that we learnt to make friendly distances from fire. Similar situations do keep coming all our lives and having not fed the 'learn from mistakes' animal well we keep spilling the milk. 

Let us peek into what makes us twist way from truth. Is it fear ? Is it our emotions dwelling poles? Do we try to impress people habitually? Do we like complicating things? Do we like to over simplify things? So many questions to ask and so many seemingly possible combinations. But let us accept that we have made it our comfort zone and changes pull us out of it. We often need short entries and quick exits. Is it not even worse to feel proud about keeping such tricks up the sleeves? A famous saying says ' A man is know by the company he keeps'. Our habits influence the company we keep and our company decides our habits as well. It now shrinks to keep an eye over our habits as well as our company. It is no chess to draw ' A man makes himself' either way.

Having decided that we decide what we become, another set of questions sprouts up naturally. What stops us? Why comfort is so dear? A sentence strikes my mind now. ' It is simple to be good but very difficult to be simple.' But why is it so? A religious explanation can be a gist to all such queries.

' We are not as God fearing as we owe to be.'

Keeping the sentence above to rest for a while let us give this drum a psychological beat. It strongly suggests me that our behavior is mostly result oriented whereas we need to train it to be process oriented. Simplicity is simple. There is a path from A to B and it is straight in the world of simplicity. The process is prescribed. We do start from A. Then we start making shoots in that straight path. As short straight paths look longer than long paths with many short turns we take turns. As there is no prescription here we go into solving an indeterminate puzzle. As there is one single shortest path and any quest to find an even shorter path is futile provided we still eye B. I see several possibilities. First one , we do reach B but through so long a path that the purpose of reaching B would be gone. Second one, mid way through the puzzle after having lost the feel of reaching B we stop contemplating any further endeavors and find solace in reaching somewhere not on the map. Third one, we may either backtrack to A and then set on the prescribed path or explore some way through the puzzle that connects to the straight path from A to B somewhere in the middle. Either way considerable time would be lost. Fourth one, the passive most possibility but if we start discarding passive ones we would be left with the prescribed path only. So this one is to find a C and give it a name B in our minds. I leave it to the readers to explore other possibilities as young minds may find it interesting enough.


In all these erroneous paths there is something common. They all feel sad towards the end. We could have reached B in time and have enjoyed the sweetness of simplicity. Behavioral misdeeds I guess work the same way.
----to continue.